The Insanity Continues

I'm not sure how this happened, but I seem to have another friend, also called Rachel, who is codependent (okay, I was a bit codependent with Rachel One, myself).

There are times when I just can't mentally/emotionally deal with my neighbor and her neediness. When this happens, I don't respond to her texts/phone calls. I know she doesn't know when I do this, how could she when I'm in my apartment and she's in hers? But after I've ignored a call and/or text, I'll get a text asking if I'm 'mad' at her (I put mad in quotes because I can't stand when people say mad when they mean upset or angry).

I get that this woman doesn't have a lot of people to lean on (and I think I know why), but I can't be at her beck and call.

She wants me to come home from my parents' this weekend and then take her to get a money order and to the post office to mail it. Um, no. I'm tired when I get home from spending all day at my parents' house. And driving her around to do her errands is putting too much wear and tear on my car.

I'm doing this here because she has a TikTok but I don't know if she's found mine or not. I guess I could always block her, but that hasn't worked with my daughter. Someone she knows keeps finding my videos where I talk about how I'm feeling and sending them to her which is causing strive and putting her under stress she doesn't need this close to her wedding.

I haven't gotten the mail at all this year (I know I'm a lazy fuck) but I have a fairly good reason for it. See, my complex has two entrances: one at the front where the office/mailboxes are and one at the back.

My apartment is at the back so I always use the back entrance which means I have to go out of my way to get the mail. And I'm usually ready to get home.

So today after doing laundry I decided to stop and get it. And what did I find in my mail (other than bills and junk mail)? A card from squidgiepdx and melagan. I'm so sorry if y'all thought I was unappreciative by not saying thank you. I haven't read them yet because stupid me left the mail in the car. But I'm going grocery shopping in a bit and I'll bring it in then.

Please consider this as your thank you. It really made my day to get these cards, even if I haven't read them yet.