The Insanity Continues

I've been watching Daredevil (the series that used to be on Netflix) because Disney+ has a new series that is a sequel. I thought I had watched the whole series but as I've been watching it now, I don't think I ever did.

I remember all of the first season and the first few episodes of the second season and the first episode of third season. Not sure why I watched it like that but I did.

I will be finishing the series today and will then watch the new one, but not while working. I think I will move on to Jessica Jones while I'm working.

I don't think I mentioned that I was having bouts of light headedness last week, but I was. At first, I thought it was my glucose (it's been over 100 for so long that when it is in the normal range, my body sees it as a low blood sugar event). But that wasn't it.

Thursday was my first indication that the issue might be my blood pressure. I spoke to my mom about it and told her that if my pressure was that low again, I'd call my doctor.

Friday morning it was in what I call my normal range but later in the day, I almost passed out so I took it again and it was 98 over 58. I called my doctor and she told me to stop taking one of my blood pressure meds.

It's only been a couple of days but I'm still a bit light headed this morning even though my blood pressure is not low (or at least it wasn't when I took it thirty minutes ago).

I tried cleaning my bathroom and only managed to get the counter done. I'm going to try and get the rest done this weekend or next week (I'm on vacation).

My dream this morning was confusing. I lived in this nice townhouse in a really nice complex. I left my unit and drove to another one, almost hitting several golf carts in the process (I got the feeling I was suppose to be driving a golf cart and not my car). At the other unit, I took a shower and had breakfast. I remember thinking something along the lines of 'how can I have two units when I'm only paying for one?' I never once questioned why I went to this other unit to bathe and eat.

For the first time in a while, I actually thought about calling off. Only reason I didn't is because I'm on vacation next week.

I only slept in the bed for a couple of hours because I, once again, couldn't find a comfortable position to sleep in.

I bought some of that weatherstripping that went viral on TikTok a could of months ago and put it up last night. It took me a really long time and I don't think I got it along the bottom correctly because I can't get on my knees. I'll find out tomorrow if opening my door messes it up or not.

In the mornings, I sit for twenty minutes without doing anything before I take my blood pressure. I think I'm going to go back to only five or ten minutes.

Well, yet another day when I couldn't find the energy to get my ass up and walk on my treadmill.

I slept in my bed for just under four hours and despite not being to keep my eyes open was unable to fall back asleep on the couch until after 4am.

I did sponge bathe, although I do need to wash my hair.

It has become a thing for me to get shaky around 3pm. So to keep myself from having too many carbs, when I go to the store this weekend, I'm going to get some grapes and cubed cheese to have as a mid afternoon snack. Maybe then my glucose will stay under 100. When I take it before having some butter bread it's between 70 and 80 (so far).

After a week of suffering from leg cramps, I did not do anything this morning.

Originally the plan was to clean the bathroom while doing the laundry Friday night but when it came time for that, I decided that would be too much. I managed to do all but one load (my sheets). In fact, my whites are still in the dryer.

I was going to clean the bathroom Saturday night/Sunday day but after what happened Saturday, I decided it would be best if I didn't.

Saturday, my brother and I met with our parents so we could be put on their accounts so that when they pass or are incapacitated we can access their money easier. After we got that taken care of, we had lunch then my mother, SIL, and I went shopping at Kohl's. While at the store, I began to feel weak. I told my mom that I felt like I was going to faint but I didn't, I just really needed to sit down.

I had also been having cramps in my legs and feet all morning which made driving to my parents' difficult.

When I left my parents' I really wanted to just go straight home but I needed food which meant I needed to stop at Walmart. As I was leaving Walmart, I developed a cramp in my right ankle but it was raining and I had milk and ice cream so I couldn't sit it out.

Luckily, there's a stretch of road where I can put cruise control on and move my foot to work out a cramp.

This morning my dream was almost like a movie/fantasy book. A young man who was raised in a life of privilege (he was a prince, I think) finds out that no one in his life is who he thinks they are.

The palace/castle he lives in is attacked by an enemy he never knew existed. His best friend (who is actually his body guard), helps him and several of their people escape through a hidden passage that only the MMC can access and then lock. But he cannot lock it until someone else tries to access it (I know, right?). While they're going through this passage he's told that he has powers and that his parents didn't tell him because they had hoped he wouldn't need them. But since he is the last of his line, he will need them for sure.

About an hour before I clocked out last night, I started feeling shaky but I was also cold so I thought that's why I was shaking. After I clocked out, I ran my hands under warm water and decided I wanted some butter bread. While buttering the bread, my shaking was so bad, I was afraid I was going to drop everything. So, I decided to take my glucose. It was 74 (which is what it should be).

I'm guessing my glucose has been over 100 for so long that it being in the normal range had my body thinking I was having a low blood sugar event.



I was hoping it would still be under 100 when I took it this morning but it was not.



I once again slept on the couch. I woke up at one point and felt something tucked between my leg and the arm of my seat. When I pulled it up, I discovered it was my glasses. I'm still confused as to how they got there. I know I fell asleep with them on because I was watching Wild Cards on The CW. Usually when I take them off, I set them on the TV tray I use for my laptop (when I have one), so not sure what happened. I suppose it is possible that I knocked them off or tried to take them off while asleep. Guess we'll never know.

Yesterday I was taking a break and looking at my personal email when I saw an email from PayPal saying that $156.95 was paid to Norton360. I freaked the fuck out because I canceled my subscription when my laptop died last year. So, I went to the Norton website and made sure to turn off auto renewal, then began the process of contesting the charge.

PayPal told me to call Norton and they were helpful in getting the charge reversed. However, the man I spoke to kept trying to get me to not cancel. I told him no less than three times that I no longer had a device to use their product on. I mean, I do have a Surface tablet but if it dies I won't be as sad as when my laptop dies. Yes, I would be very bored after that but it won't be the end of the world.

The call center agent said the refund had been issued. Because I use PayPal to pay for it, I thought the money wouldn't be taken from my account at all. But I got a text telling me I only had $8.59 in my account. I freaked out (this is part of why I wasn't able to go back to sleep (see below for explanation)). I spent a few minutes trying to figure out how to contact PayPal to ask why this happened then decided to wait until the sun was up. A couple of hours later I received a text that $156.95 had been deposited into my account. Crisis averted.

I still wasn't feeling well all day and when it came time for bed, I just let myself fall asleep on the couch.

I fell asleep watching Kids Baking Championship and now have to go rewatch it, although I did go back and watch the end so I know who won. Then I put on House Hunters because I thought I was awake enough to watch it all.

Spoiler: I was not.

I'm fairly sure that a leg cramp woke me around 1am, but I'm not positive. This cramp was very painful. I mean, they all are but this one was bad enough that I couldn't sit and wait it out. I had to walk it off.

This time I was awake enough to watch House Hunters (she did not buy the house I would have bought) and one episode of Neighborhood Wars along with part of another. I caught myself falling asleep, that's why I only watched part of the second episode of Neighborhood Wars.

The wind was gusting really strongly all evening and I could feel it coming in the gaps around my front door. I have some weather stripping that I got off TikTok shop. I think I might put it up this weekend.

When I came into my room to get started on my day, I checked on my car, like I always do. When I turned on the standing lamp that's next to my desk, I discovered that the frost guard had blown off. I went out to see if it was on the ground nearby and luckily it had gotten caught on the passenger side rear tire. I put it back on. Hopefully it doesn't get blown off again.

For the first time in a while, I actually thought about calling off work. Two things kept me from doing so. 1) We have been given permission to work two hours of OT and I really need the extra pay and 2) it is month end and I still have tank loss to review.

My plans for this weekend were to collect all the trash between 3 and 3:30 Friday so that when I clocked out I could just take it right out, come back and watch one of my shows, go clean the bathroom counter, watch one of my shows, clean the mirrors, the toilet, and the cabinet I have next to it, watch another of my shows, clean the tub and shower, watch another show, then finish with vacuuming/mopping the floor and washing the mats.

But that didn't happen. The reason why is very detailed.

Back in November, I told my doctor that there was a day where my heart was beating really hard. It wasn't racing but it was pounding like it was struggling to pump. She ordered an EKG and diagnosed me with A Fib and ordered a referral to a cardiologist.

When they hadn't called a week later, I called her office and they said it looked like the order didn't go through, so they did it again. My doctor had set up a televisit in December to discuss the results. When I told her they hadn't ever called me, she gave me their number and I decided I'd call after the New Year. But I kept forgetting.

At my appointment in March, she ordered the referral again. They still didn't call.

Wednesday, I received an email telling me about the referral. Then Friday during my lunch, they called. I didn't answer because it was a number I don't know, and I don't answer numbers I don't know. I figure if it's important, they'll leave a voicemail. They did leave one, and I decided I'd call back once I got back to work.

Just a few minutes after I clocked in, they called back. I answered and they said, "Hi, Melissa. This is So and So from Dr. So and So’s office."

I have no explanation for the way I crashed out, but I went OFF on the poor woman. I have NEVER received a call and had the person just ASSUME they were talking to me. They ALWAYS ask to speak to me. I was so hot that it was nearly two hours before I stopped shaking.

Because of that, I decided to just take out the trash, mostly because I needed to get the mail (the registration sticker for my car was delivered) and the mailbox is right next to the dumpster, so I didn't see any reason not to take out the trash. I figured I could clean the bathroom Saturday night/Sunday day since I have no other plans.

Saturday, I went to Walmart. I had a budget of $50 because for the first time in several months I'm worried I won't have enough to pay rent and cover any bills that'll hit before I get paid again Thursday.

My list was: chicken, green bean, potatoes, onion soup mix, milk, and cereal. I managed to get all that for less than $40.

When I got home, I cooked the chicken, green beans, and potatoes. I bought two packages of chicken to make sure I had seven chicken breasts so I could have meals for the whole week. I picked a pack that looked like it had five breasts and another one that looked like it had two.

I paid less than $10 for a pack that had five HUGE chicken breasts and one decent sized chicken breast. And when I say HUGE, I mean they had to be about two inches think. The other one ended up having three decent sized chicken breasts. When I say decent I mean they were about an inch thick.

I had found a recipe for sheet pan chicken with potatoes and green beans. I think I need a bigger sheet pan because there was barely enough room for everything.

Because of how thick the chicken is, I was afraid it wouldn't get cooked all the way through. For Christmas, my mom gave everyone a meat thermometer (that wasn't all she gave us, FYI). I was able to finally use it to make sure my chicken was done. Every piece had a temp of around 170 (chicken needs to have a temp of at least 165).

I really wanted to clean the bathroom Saturday night/Sunday day but just couldn't get my act together and get off my ass. Then my mom asked if she could come over Sunday after church to help her buy somethings off Amazon. And I still couldn't get up and do the bathroom. But I did empty, load, and run the dishwasher, so there's that.

My mom did come over and stayed for a couple of hours. We watched this super cute movie on Hallmark+ called The Royal We. It was slow getting started and the ending left us wanting more but we enjoyed it.

Despite all this, I still planned to walk on the treadmill, shower, get dressed, and make my bed. But I got up after just under four hours in bed and decided I didn't feel up to it.

I slept on the couch again last night. I had leg cramps again. However, I did take a shower this morning and remembered to use shampoo!

I saw a TikTok from this woman in a public bathroom. She made the video because of the noises coming from the stall next to her. Now, I do not kink shame but come on! If you can't engage in adult cuddle time without making noise, don't do it where other people can hear you! That's just nasty. Take it home. I mean, how uncomfortable is it to do THAT in a public bathroom stall? Even if you're engaging in solo play, how bad off are you that you can't wait until you get home? Seriously, though. Ain't no one wanna hear that!

I slept on the couch again last night. BUT I took an actual shower. Although I did forget to wash my hair. I rinsed it and while rinsing off the body wash, realized I didn't use shampoo. Oops? I then got dressed. This is not the shirt I wanted to wear but since that shirt is white and the only bra that was clean is black, I went with this one. I bought it either for Valentine's Day or when I went as a devil for Halloween. It is a keeper.



And yes, I am wearing shoes. I don't normally wear shoes in my house but it's still chilly here in the mornings and I'm washing my slippers (they won't be dry until tomorrow or Thursday). I didn't want my feet to get cold, so I put on shoes. Please ignore my hair, I don't brush it when it's wet because I had a stylist once tell me that causes damage.

I also made my bed. Only thing I did not do this morning was walk on the treadmill but since I've been having issues with my back lately, I thought it was for the best. But at least I am a couple of steps closer to my goals for this year.



I broke down and had two bowls of cereal last night and that is probably why my glucose is so high. I've also started sitting for ten minutes before taking my blood pressure.