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Sep. 3rd, 2013 09:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
logans_girl2001I’m going off line for a while. Sorry, Rach. If you need me, text, but otherwise, I’ll check in when I can.
The reason is rather detailed. And requires a bit of a back story, mainly to refresh your memories.
Back in May I was ‘promoted’. At the time my schedule was: Monday-Wednesday morning Accounts Receivable, Wednesday afternoon-Friday Accounts Payable.
Then it was changed to Mondays, Thursday afternoon-Friday AR, Tuesday-Thursday morning AP.
Then it was changed to Mondays and Fridays AR, Tuesday-Thursday AP.
Then three weeks ago a co-worker quit and it was changed again. So, for those playing at home, how many times is that now? Who cares?
My schedule now is Monday-Tuesday AR, Wednesday-Friday AP. Except for the past three weeks it is Monday-Wednesday AR, Thursday-Friday AP. This week, because of Labor Day, I only get today and tomorrow for AR.
This means I have two days to do three and a half days worth of work. yeah, so not gonna happen.
Sometime between 9 and 10 this morning JS sent an email saying she wanted to have a meeting at 10:30. I emailed back reminding her it’s my AR day and that I don’t really have the time. Although I was nicer about it than that.
Friday i got an upgraded computer with Windows 7 and Office/outlook 2010 and so I don’t always get the notice when I get a new email.
Anyway, at 10:30 she called to get me to come to her office for the meeting. I again stressed that I don’t have the time and that I already use the program she wanted to have the meeting about. She told me to come anyway, saying ‘It’ll be fine.”
I hung up the phone, making sure to not slam the phone down even though I was really frustrated. I’m nearly positive the phone was all the way hung up when I said, “No, it won’t!” But maybe it wasn’t.
I got up and went to her office, only to have her meet me at the door and tell me, in a ‘you’ve really fucked up now’ tone of voice, “It’s fine. We’ll talk later.”
At this point, I’m positive I’m getting fired. My first response is ‘Fine, fire me.” But then I was, “No, don’t!”
And had a major anxiety attack
I managed to get 25 RCOs (24 stores, one didn’t send last week’s paperwork on time) done this afternoon so I’m hopeful I can finish them off tomorrow.
I’m also hoping I don’t get fired tomorrow.
Towards the end of the day I came to the conclusion that I should apologize, even though I don’t think I did anything wrong, but knew I wouldn’t be able to do it face to face without breaking down so I decided to email JS.
I was going to email her from home but decided it shouldn’t wait.
I took a couple of minutes to type of this email:
I can only pray that my apology is enough to keep myself employed because I really can’t afford to lose this job.
The reason is rather detailed. And requires a bit of a back story, mainly to refresh your memories.
Back in May I was ‘promoted’. At the time my schedule was: Monday-Wednesday morning Accounts Receivable, Wednesday afternoon-Friday Accounts Payable.
Then it was changed to Mondays, Thursday afternoon-Friday AR, Tuesday-Thursday morning AP.
Then it was changed to Mondays and Fridays AR, Tuesday-Thursday AP.
Then three weeks ago a co-worker quit and it was changed again. So, for those playing at home, how many times is that now? Who cares?
My schedule now is Monday-Tuesday AR, Wednesday-Friday AP. Except for the past three weeks it is Monday-Wednesday AR, Thursday-Friday AP. This week, because of Labor Day, I only get today and tomorrow for AR.
This means I have two days to do three and a half days worth of work. yeah, so not gonna happen.
Sometime between 9 and 10 this morning JS sent an email saying she wanted to have a meeting at 10:30. I emailed back reminding her it’s my AR day and that I don’t really have the time. Although I was nicer about it than that.
Friday i got an upgraded computer with Windows 7 and Office/outlook 2010 and so I don’t always get the notice when I get a new email.
Anyway, at 10:30 she called to get me to come to her office for the meeting. I again stressed that I don’t have the time and that I already use the program she wanted to have the meeting about. She told me to come anyway, saying ‘It’ll be fine.”
I hung up the phone, making sure to not slam the phone down even though I was really frustrated. I’m nearly positive the phone was all the way hung up when I said, “No, it won’t!” But maybe it wasn’t.
I got up and went to her office, only to have her meet me at the door and tell me, in a ‘you’ve really fucked up now’ tone of voice, “It’s fine. We’ll talk later.”
At this point, I’m positive I’m getting fired. My first response is ‘Fine, fire me.” But then I was, “No, don’t!”
And had a major anxiety attack
I managed to get 25 RCOs (24 stores, one didn’t send last week’s paperwork on time) done this afternoon so I’m hopeful I can finish them off tomorrow.
I’m also hoping I don’t get fired tomorrow.
Towards the end of the day I came to the conclusion that I should apologize, even though I don’t think I did anything wrong, but knew I wouldn’t be able to do it face to face without breaking down so I decided to email JS.
I was going to email her from home but decided it shouldn’t wait.
I took a couple of minutes to type of this email:
JS, I want to apologize if I did anything or used a tone that came across as rude or insubordinate. That was not my intention.
It’s just that I have two days within which to do three and a half days’ worth of work and I know I’m not going to get it all done.
Plus, I always get in trouble when I do AP stuff on AR days and vice versa and I was trying to avoid that. Along with trying to avoid getting in trouble for having to ask for help come next week, because I know I’m going to have to otherwise the RCOs for my stores won’t get done in time.
Please don’t fire me. I really like this job and wish to continue to work here. I will accept any punishment you deem necessary.
I can only pray that my apology is enough to keep myself employed because I really can’t afford to lose this job.
