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logans_girl2001) wrote2014-09-21 04:30 pm
logans_girl2001) wrote2014-09-21 04:30 pm
June 2014
6/1/14
I woke up this morning with a headache. I wanted to go grocery shopping (need food) but decided I'd rather try napping away my headache because my daughter's choir banquet is tonight.
I laid down at 9 and got up sometime after 12 because my head was hurting even more lying down.
While I was napping my mother began texting me. Below are the texts I got from her (complete with misspellings):
So since I failed to answer one text she immediately assumed I wasn't going to go. She did try to call at 9:57am but, again, I was sleeping the sleep of the heavily drugged (I had taken a migraine pill before my nap) and didn't hear the phone.
I still have a bit of a headache and nausea too. I tried to eat something, which dulled the pain from 'I want to cut off the top of my head' to a dull roar but since I have to work tomorrow (still three weeks behind) I made the difficult decision to not go tonight. I suggested they ask my ex-mother-in-law, Grandma Judy.
My mother then calls me and asks if it'll be okay to invite my ex and his current wife and their children to the house after my daughter's graduation next week. I told her that was fine but if he even thinks about trying to start something I will leave because no matter how I react (or don't as the case really is) my mother blames me and I will not have that. Although I shouldn't be the one to leave my parents' house it should be him but that won't happen because no one is ever on my side.
I woke up this morning with a headache. I wanted to go grocery shopping (need food) but decided I'd rather try napping away my headache because my daughter's choir banquet is tonight.
I laid down at 9 and got up sometime after 12 because my head was hurting even more lying down.
While I was napping my mother began texting me. Below are the texts I got from her (complete with misspellings):
9:59am .Are you coming over here to ride with us tonight.
10:13amI f you are not going I will take someone else and pay you back
10:14amI neef to know that so l can call them please
10:26amIf I do hear from you l am going to ask someone else. So if you are going, even by youself I need to know. I know you really did not want to go in the first place so here is your way out. You have got to reach deep down inside yourself and make this ALL about [my daughter].
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10:31amShe needs you and deserves not to have to deal with dram for me and you. I failed with you so we are not close enough and l have not been doing much better with her. She and l ate going to Celebrate Recovery and would love for you to go with us. Please know this is from my heart and l want my family closer and loving and caring and givers and all that God has for us to serve Him and be His example
10:41amBeyond
10:41amOk l am asking Grandma Judy to go. So very sad Melissa, through my tears l have heart break for yoy and [my daughter] that you were not more involved through her school years now she has this opportunity to soar and succed and if you choose youwill miss that. I have a broken Mother's heart. I love you beyond the Moon and
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10:41amBeyond
10:58am[my daughter] does not know that we or l have talked wit you. She just got up and said she is going to call you with her news. I pray you will answer the phone
11:00amI did not tell her l told you the news. Or that you might not go tonight
11:29amI told her not to tell you that she already new. But that is part of the drama. I am going to let go and let God will not try to fix you are yor relationships again. She is asking [my ex] to go
So since I failed to answer one text she immediately assumed I wasn't going to go. She did try to call at 9:57am but, again, I was sleeping the sleep of the heavily drugged (I had taken a migraine pill before my nap) and didn't hear the phone.
I still have a bit of a headache and nausea too. I tried to eat something, which dulled the pain from 'I want to cut off the top of my head' to a dull roar but since I have to work tomorrow (still three weeks behind) I made the difficult decision to not go tonight. I suggested they ask my ex-mother-in-law, Grandma Judy.
My mother then calls me and asks if it'll be okay to invite my ex and his current wife and their children to the house after my daughter's graduation next week. I told her that was fine but if he even thinks about trying to start something I will leave because no matter how I react (or don't as the case really is) my mother blames me and I will not have that. Although I shouldn't be the one to leave my parents' house it should be him but that won't happen because no one is ever on my side.