*scratches head* I could have sworn I left a comment, but *searches under couch cushions* I guess not. Weird.

Anyway, you put yourself out there when you obviously feel like it's not worth the effort, and I'm here to prove you wrong.

You're an amazing person, who deserves love and surprise birthday parties. There's nothing wrong with wanting those things and eventually you will make friends with the kinds of people who will give you those things - love, appreciation, validation.

You just have to be patient, and open yourself up to the possibilities.